Self

I haven't written here in a while. I have been exploring several things. One of the things I have been exploring lately is the self. I realized no one really knows who they are. Everyone attempts to impress one another. In order to get recognized or to get some attention we often hurt one another. I have realized how much I have allowed people's lives and opinions to shape me; the way I think, feel, act and the decisions I make. I am making a transition. See, I don't want to be anything anyone else puts on me but at the same time I myself don't know exactly who I am. This is largely in part because of letting other things other than my desires dictate what I do. So I must also not put a label on myself. I should just be. So I will. I will be my Self. No one else can be me but me :)

Autonomy

It has become very evident that my sense of autonomy is scarce. God is the only one who can restore it. For it to be restored I am going to have to get really honest. Honesty takes pain and mourning. I am willing. Take me, Lord.

July!

July is the month where I completely let go and let God lead me into everything He wants me to do and be. I am done controlling my day. I am done controlling everything in my life. My life belongs to God and He will do anything he wants to do. I trust him. He is my catcher. He will give me everything I need. He will make me lie down in peace. He will nourish my soul. He is my God. He is my Father. He is my King, My life is his. I am not making it be his. It simply is. Thank you Father.